| Please Please Please slow it down |
[Apr. 5th, 2007|08:47 pm] |
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| | STP- Half the man I used to be | ] |
Oh how I have neglected you poor livejournal though I promise to make it up to you in the near future. I guess I should inform this electronic community of recent activities. School first and foremost is driving me up the wall. Though I am not going full time per se , working nearly 33 hours a week and squeezing school in there is no task for the novice.
April fools day was pretty sweet, actually it was'nt but the best part was I glued a bunch of change to the cement in front of the store. The perpetual laughter that came out of everyone there was entirely getting super glue permanetly attached to two of my nails.
So I have decided that I am going to finish my degree and get it in psychology. After that I am going to try and move to california where I have no fucking clue what I will do. I am just completely fed up with this state and want to live somewhere else.
So there is this girl that I really like and I have'nt been able to talk to her for a long time now because of a terrible tragedy. I feel really bad for her but I just hope that she still likes me after she gets herself together because I really want to be there for her but I just do not know what to do. I don't know if I should let her have her space and let her call me or periodically call to see how she is. who knows.
All I know for sure is that I am somehwhat excited for the summer and what the future holds.
Your friend in time,
Jonathon Carlos Jorge |
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| The interworkings of my life |
[Sep. 10th, 2006|11:39 am] |
Where to start this random update? Probably the most prominent change in my life is my new employment at sprint. I love that place, the company is so great to all of there employees.For example the other day at work the regional marketing guy came in and did a couple of things and then bought an outrageous amount of buffalo wild wings for everyone. The next thing is school starting already I had a revelation. The past couple months I have been really re working my life and the first day of school really cemented my choice of not wanting to do anything with law or criminal justice. I do not know what I am going to do but I am sure that things will unfold as they should,in writing that I remember that is a quote from a movie but I am not sure of what it is. It's still so hard everyday to not have my grandma with me or tell her all about my life,I just wish I could talk to her one more time. So who knows where my life is going or who will be in it in the next couple months though I know that the next 4 months are going to shape where and who I will be.
That is all from the world of Jonathon Carlos Jorge |
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| The love that I have will never falter |
[Jul. 2nd, 2006|03:27 am] |
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Well I guess this is the most recent update that I have done in a while. I guess the most pertinent thing that I have had to deal with recently with is the death of my grandmother. I have never really experienced a death in my life and this is definetly the hardest thing that i have ever had to do. My grandma meant so much to me and the fact that she is gone now gives me chills and makes it hard for me to finish each day without breaking down. She has been gone only like a week and I miss her so much already. It is hard not believing in religion in a time like this because I want to believe in an afterlife so much but logically I can not bring myself to believing that there is sometype otherworld that everyone ends up. I am already having a hard time trying to move on because my grandmother was really like a second mother to me. I worry for my grandpa as well. I have never seen him cry in his entire lifetime until my grandma's funeral and he somewhat let it go. I am still in shock that I am never going to see my grandma again. At least she got to see my brother graduate right before she died, it almost seemed like it was destined to happen. I swear at the beginning of this year that I felt something terrible was going to happen and now know what that terrible thing is. I just love my grandma so much and now I am clinging to every memory I have of her and every physical object that she has touched.
In other news I am completly depressed. I have not had a good day in such a long time. I am so lonely at nights now and I just wish that I could find a girl that makes me fell whole. But I do not see that happening and with everything that is going on now I just want to move away so bad because now that that my grandma is gone I have nothing that is holding me back |
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| Contrary to popular belief I am not dead |
[Apr. 6th, 2006|12:16 am] |
It has been ages since I have updated this journal and now I feel compelled to write in it for some reason. I have been enjoying the unemployed life now for what seems to be more than a month. I was fired because I tried to bring a union into my job because quite honestly our management is a bunch of fucks. So understandably they frown upon this type of behavior and therefore I was canned. The ironic thing is that I could not collect unemployment because I did not work enough and now I don't work at all.
Things in my life now are so weird and fucked up I don't know how to describe it.I feel like im a walking ghost that is just going through the motions. I have fallen into a daily monotonous routine that I hate. Maybe its because I do not have a job and Im kinda going stir crazy or maybe I deep down believe that I need to move to california to go to school. Its not even about the school out there it would be because of the environment and the lifestyle change that would happen to me. I feel like I have become a recluse or a hermit. Realistically I don't see anyone anymore, really its just the guys and then scattered in between on the weekend I will see some other familiar face that I know but I really won't even be able to speak to them because I will be at a party.It seems now that the only time I get out is for exercise school and the occasional errand that I have to run but other than that i am in the confines of my room plotting where to take my life next
I am going to try to work at mesaba airlines, and the emphasis on try becasue if they start me off with shitty as fuck hours im going to tell them to shove that job up there ass. But I think I might just suck it up because If im going to california then im gonna need to do some scouting and meet up with smut. The one thing that I know for sure is that this summer is going to be THE summer that will define who I am and where I am going. This is going to be the summer of change and I will guarantee that by the end of it I will be a better person but If im going to stay in this part of the country is another question within itself.
Your Friend in Time,
Jon |
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[Jan. 6th, 2006|02:03 pm] |
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| | Lost Prophets- We still kill the old way | ] |
One Weak |
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| Cali here i come |
[Sep. 15th, 2005|04:51 pm] |
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I will be departing the state of michigan in 2 hours for the great state of california |
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[Aug. 24th, 2005|11:14 pm] |
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Weezer/Foofighters show tickets go on sale this saturday, who is coming with me |
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[Jul. 9th, 2005|04:54 pm] |
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Why am I always getting fucked over and why cant I be happy like everyone else |
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| In over my head |
[Jun. 28th, 2005|08:57 pm] |
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| | Nirvana-Where did you sleep last night | ] |
Well for those of you dying to know about my personal life but dont really talk to me I will share some of this personal information with you. I am talking to gail again. This time she is single for three weeks and calling me daily. I did nothing to initiate this reconnection and I am not sure where this is going or what will happen. I dont care what anyone really thinks because right now in the present she makes me feel amazing and that is all that matters. I can not predict the future nor can I say what will happen so that is why I am not sitting around debating what to do. I am just gonna go with the flow and see where this takes me. I may be hurt again or I may have something totally amazing but I feel I need to take this chance. |
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| The legal system is fucked |
[Jun. 13th, 2005|05:21 pm] |
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I can not believe that Jackson has gotten away scott free with everything. It just shows that if you have enough money that you can any jury |
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| Burn Burn for us for them for you |
[May. 27th, 2005|12:02 am] |
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| | Lost prophets-Burn Burn | ] |
Well I really havent updated this infernal journal in actually a long time. It just seems that their is nothing of substance that really would interest anyone. I have declared my major and my minor. I am majoring in Criminal Justice and minoring in law in society. For those of you that do not what my collegiate plans are I intend to take my degree to law school somewhere.
Ok something random, does anyone pick up stuff with their feet or am I just weird.
Onward with the updating with my life. I have been having these really intense recurring dreams/nightmares these past two weeks . Next friday I am going to the toledo zoo so if anyone wants to go let me know. I will also going to the DIA very soon in the future. I am once again out of good books to read so if anyone would like to trade some books around let me know because it is tough to find kids my age that actually read on a daily basis.
I was gonna try to get a job at mesaba airlines again but after hours of contemplation I decided that this job would not be what I need right now even though free flying would be amazing, i just feel that i would nt use it enough to make it worth my while. Another reason is that my job right now is ridiculus because the less I care about this job and the more i fuck around the more power they give me. Im probably gonna start being a lead and this is a huge pay increase to where I am going to be making like 8 bucks an hour plus tips . But I kinda wanted to get out of prospect just because it is so fucking weird seeing gail from time to time.
I hate the void that is created when I am not around my friends or the lack of something to do at the moment because when i am idle doing nothing i get really depressed and lonely. I also have to find some new drink because this drinking five on the rocks is way too bad for me because it tastes like water and I get way too fucked up to the point where i dont know how i got home and i dont like that feeling because i dont know if drove home or what and that is a scary thought.
Another point, I want to get a dual citzenship with canada. I think that it would be fucking sweet to say i am citizen from another country. Also i want to have it as a backup plan just in case this country continues on this downward spiral that we are on. It is a sad world when our president starts a war based purely on finacial gain. The everyday republican right wing fucks make me sick. They thump their bibles and preach pro life . fuck that , if you wanted pro life then support stem cell research because their are people having their lives stripped away by parkinsons and alzeihmers. The loss of the ability to move and remember your loved ones is two of the scariest aspects of life. To know that we have the capability to help these people and we cant is fucking outrageous. To know that we let the elderly and the diseased suffer because some fat fucks in power are worried about pissing off their god. Fuck that , if your god didnt want us to fuck with genetics or stem cells then he would do something about it. The fact that our doctors in this day in age can play god and alter our structures reaffirms my belief that their could possibly be no god. The real problem I have is with the politicians that use religion as a stepping stone to acquire power. Look at bush , hooked on coke , drunk driver and basically a loser if life but all he had to do was say he was a born again christian and people just eat out of his hand. This country was created for the sole purpose to have freedom of religion that is not pushed on you by your government. but what really is funny that our president can sit on his podium and preach his religion and you guys will revel in his glory but I got up on the podium and used scientific facts to point out that religion and the belief in god is a crock a shit I would be seen as a scoundrel and a low life degenerate. Im not looking to debate or anything so please do not share your comments on this subject with me |
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[May. 20th, 2005|07:18 pm] |
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I feel my heart unravelling at its seems and I fear that I will lose my ability to love again |
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[May. 9th, 2005|01:51 am] |
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| | 311-Hostile Apostle | ] |
I have the greatest group of friends anyone could ask for |
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| What the fuck man |
[Apr. 8th, 2005|01:03 am] |
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| | The Beatles- While my guitar gently weeps | ] |
How in the fuck do I get myself in these fucked up situations? I guess I am just a hopeless romantic |
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| A quick update about my life |
[Mar. 22nd, 2005|10:35 pm] |
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| | Marilyn Manson-Fight song | ] |
Well I am in the midst of a renovation of my room. I have bought a futon that starts out as a sofa then transforms into a bed. Also I have purchased a mini fridge so now I can always have cold alcohol on tap in my room which will be bad ass. also I am painting my room a dark red color which is gonna be totally bad ass and I have hired josh to paint me something totally badass for my room and I know that its gonna be amazing.For those of you who havent seen me in a while I have acquired a new short haircut but that was like a month ago and I am going to get it cut again this week. I am also pumped for the semester to be over with around april 22 which is gonna be amazing. But the most prevalent point that I wanted to make was that Weezer is coming to town May 5 and tickets go on sale saturday morning. I have been waiting for Weezer to come to town for so long and this concert is going to be fucking awesome, so drop a comment if you want to go with me. Last but not least, Gail is Amazing |
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| Im past caring |
[Mar. 8th, 2005|12:19 pm] |
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| | QOTSA- Little sister | ] |
Im not gonna update everyone on my life because if you dont know what is going on in my life then you are probably not important to me. Im so rich , I got another hundred dollar tip and that is why im the money monster. The white e cd should be out soon so look for that coming out soon because it is going change the way you look at life. Everyone is in this missing everyone mood and it is really funny because I am the happiest I have been in a while without the people that miss me. I cant wait to leave this town and the people in it and finish my undergrad work |
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[Feb. 18th, 2005|01:42 am] |
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Big money Big money No whammy stop |
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| I hate Religion |
[Jan. 22nd, 2005|02:13 am] |
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Ok I dont care what anyone thinks but I fucking hate religion. I cant believe all of the people out there that believe in it actually have fallen for its trap. You believe in something that people have used for centuries to corrupt mankind. If we didnt have religion we would be a better society. people would not have a reason to kill. Why everyone tricks themselves to believe there is an after life still baffles me, get some balls are realize that there is nothing after life and that science has proven everything against your god. it even says that in my antropology book that 1. it reduces anxiety by expaling the unknown. 2 provide comfort by assuring superhuman aid. 3 provides justification of right and wrong . 4 Removes the burden of decision making from indivuals and gives it to superhuman beings , powers, and forces. 5 Justifies and Maintains order. And you know what is the difference between magic and religion is that people actually believe in religion. Ask yourself this when you read this, do you actually believe in it or do you believe in it cause your parents told you too and if you believe in it for that is it actually a good reason too or what ? |
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[Jan. 12th, 2005|07:22 pm] |
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I bet no one will remember |
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