|Contrary to popular belief I am not dead
||[Apr. 6th, 2006|12:16 am]
It has been ages since I have updated this journal and now I feel compelled to write in it for some reason. I have been enjoying the unemployed life now for what seems to be more than a month. I was fired because I tried to bring a union into my job because quite honestly our management is a bunch of fucks. So understandably they frown upon this type of behavior and therefore I was canned. The ironic thing is that I could not collect unemployment because I did not work enough and now I don't work at all. |
Things in my life now are so weird and fucked up I don't know how to describe it.I feel like im a walking ghost that is just going through the motions. I have fallen into a daily monotonous routine that I hate. Maybe its because I do not have a job and Im kinda going stir crazy or maybe I deep down believe that I need to move to california to go to school. Its not even about the school out there it would be because of the environment and the lifestyle change that would happen to me. I feel like I have become a recluse or a hermit. Realistically I don't see anyone anymore, really its just the guys and then scattered in between on the weekend I will see some other familiar face that I know but I really won't even be able to speak to them because I will be at a party.It seems now that the only time I get out is for exercise school and the occasional errand that I have to run but other than that i am in the confines of my room plotting where to take my life next
I am going to try to work at mesaba airlines, and the emphasis on try becasue if they start me off with shitty as fuck hours im going to tell them to shove that job up there ass. But I think I might just suck it up because If im going to california then im gonna need to do some scouting and meet up with smut. The one thing that I know for sure is that this summer is going to be THE summer that will define who I am and where I am going. This is going to be the summer of change and I will guarantee that by the end of it I will be a better person but If im going to stay in this part of the country is another question within itself.
Your Friend in Time,